In 1993, there was a skater comic-book-nerd who was sitting in a movie theater with his girlfriend. As he watched the movie, he longed to be the character on the screen. He cheered at every shooting along with his female sidekick next to him who would shout, “Way to Go! Get those idiots!”
This skater-nerd was an angry young man full of hurt and self-pity. He was a senior in high school with a B-average, which his dad said would not get him a full ride. His dad was right. The worst part for the young man was when the guidance counselor told him that his dad would have to pay his way to college. As he shouted, the whisperings inside his head was louder, “Life is unfair people need to pay!”
The movie, Falling Down, seemed to speak to him. It’s a Michael Douglas film about a man who lost his job and went on a rampage throughout Los Angeles. Douglas played a man who believed he was robbed of the things he thought he deserved out of life. When the movie was over, the young man’s date, who wanted his approval, leaned towards him and said, “Let’s make them pay.” Then the whispering came to him, “Do it. Make them pay,” but at the same time, a sick feeling came to him and he thought, “No, not this way.” The young man also had a strong feeling to get away from his date because she was wrong and that was the last time he saw her.
A year later, this young man ran out of the money he had saved and was unable to return to college. As he left, he heard a woman laughing at her fortune that her college tuition was being paid for because she had children. The whispering continued to play in this young man’s mind, which resulted in more self-pity and hate.
A couple of months go by and this young man is now using speed and gets busted. He is angry, and the whispering in his head gets louder. They are telling him that his parents and society have let him down. But then that sick feeling overcomes him like before, and he senses that the whispering is wrong, as well as, what he is doing. This feeling felt like knocking inside his heart.
During this time, his dad hired a lawyer who was able to drop the charges if he enlisted in the Army. His dad said it was a second chance for him. The young man thought he did well that year and he graduated from Tech school and had a permanent station at Fort Knox. The world seemed great and he did not experience the whispering for a while. Then things changed when he was told to take an exam the following morning. The exam was strange, but he thought he had done well. A week later, he was called into the Commander’s office. He was unprepared to receive the shocking news that he was being discharged. “Why?” he asked. He was told that the results of the test revealed that he had a “charismatic” personality, which flagged him as a potential threat to the Army. They believed that this type of personality could entice others to follow him in a revolt. The news was very upsetting to him. He wanted to know how they determined this from the test. They said that it was the affirmative reply that he gave to the comment, “You cannot always judge a book by it’s cover.” He thought that was nonsense. The commander said that while the young man was being observed, it was also clear that he posed a future threat.
Eight weeks later he was on his way home with an honorable discharge, but to him, it was another failure. Then the whispering returned, “They need to pay; that Clinton needs to pay.” And once again, along with the whispering came that familiar feeling in his stomach like a knocking on his heart that told him the whispering thoughts were not right. A short time later he was at his family’s house, and his parents had the Bible out. His grandfather leans towards the young man and says, “Son, it says in the word…” “Who’s word?” he replies to his grandpa and his grandpa answers, “Son, the Lord Jesus says in Revelation 3:20, ‘Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hears my voice, and opens the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.’”
That young man was me, Joshua Campbell. I wish I could say that was the day I was converted, but it came later. But I now understood that the sick feeling I got when the whispering came was the Lord knocking on my heart. All that time, our Lord and Savior, Yahweh was knocking at my heart and reasoning with me. He was saying to me, “Just let me in Joshua. I’m the answer.” The whispering was the whispering of the serpent just like in the garden.
This week, a horrible tragedy occurred when a married couple committed a mass murder. They were comic-nerds like I was and they felt something was wrong with the world liked I did. But they listened to the whispering so much that it possessed them. When reading the story in the news, my heart ached for the policemen and their families. My heart also ached because I know that my Lord Jesus Christ had grace and mercy on me. I could have been them back in 1993 with the girl who wanted my attention, and the other times after that. But he knocked over and over. “Just let me in, Joshua,” he would say. He put the scripture in my grandfather’s mouth!
When that couple shouted, “A revolution is starting,” they were listening to a partial truth given to them by Lucifer himself. There is a revolution; a spiritual revolution. It’s a war between Yahweh and Lucifer and there is a side to choose. Are you going to hear the knocking and join the side of Yahweh? Will you become a soldier in his kingdom and fight against the powers of wickedness? Or, are you going to listen to the whispering of the fallen ones? So let us pray that the Lord places remnant members before these people to let them know that the answer is not the one who whispers but with the one who knocks.
Written by Joshua Campbell for the Remnant Resistance Blog!
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